In case you are wondering

Dear Friends! Welcome to the GYPSY CAFE! A few minutes ago I was just talking to my sister about how I do not have the time for anything these days. Although I promised to myself that I would keep things simple this year and would spend my time doing enjoyable and wintery things to soak up the atmosphere of the season, I find myself running around all day long, preparing to go to Europe this Saturday (it is Saturday I think), packing and unpacking, organizing and reorganizing, returning and exchanging, remembering people and buying just that one bottle of wine or candle or chocolate that I know we agreed we would not, but I still do because it is only a thought after all. 

And so, despite this collective agreement of keeping things fresh and simple and focused on love and kindness and not on the tricky commercialism of this season, I am trapped in this crazy hunt for the no-gift gifts, but at least, I am strict with sticking to candles, chocolates and wine. And I am strict with myself too when I am asked about what I want: candles or chocolates or wine. First, because these can be shared with others; they are mood enhancers and can enhance the mood immediately at the moment of receiving them. Secondly, because I have everything I need already, consumables are the most welcome gifts for me. 

But here we are, evening almost, and I have been up since the early hours in the morning, and as I look back on the day, I can say with all certainty that I have run around a lot and accomplished very little, despite my effort to maximize every minute. And first I thought it was my fault, but now I think that it just can't be helped. I truly maximize my time wisely. I write lists, plan routes, drop off and pick up on the way, calculate, estimate, project and determine time, distance, speed and force, leave no room for the unexpected derailments, and yet as the day progresses, my best laid plans turn into a race against the dying of the light because that unexpected derailment that I truly did not expect derailed me after all. And it was unavoidable and urgent, and it had to be dealt with right then and there because if I had waited or rescheduled, you probably would not read this blog now because the world would have collapsed. 

So, you can only be thankful to me, really, for having yielded to the unexpected derailment that in the end caused me to fall behind on all my plans. At least there is a tomorrow when I can start it all over again. 

And yes, this is why I have not posted a blog for two days now. In case you are wondering.

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